ako ang boss

12:56am: sa gabing mabagal
ngumingiti, nagmamasid, tumatanggap nang walang kapalit
nag-aalalaga, nagpipigil, lakwatsya ng luha ipinagbabawal
umiintindi, pumipikit, buong puso't isipang nagmamahal

8:56pm: pag papunta kay owel, laging may musika
kahapon sa 9hr break nagkita kami ni owel sa harrison. tas habang naglalakad papunta doon galing taft, may bagong melody nanaman ako na naisip. tas "babalik at babalik" yung lss. Tagalog nanaman to malamang at sana dumami pa ngayong taon.

4:58am: oo mas brutal si karla
sabi ni pam: unhealthy?
sabi ko:
parang puyatan lang yan
pag bata ka pa masama
pero pag matanda ka na alam mo na kung pano bumawi sa tulog





(sabi mo kasi wag ko iscreen. pahingi din ng ihug. kahit hindi rhug hahaha)

10:30pm: Taurus You
You’re exceptionally sensitive and very patient.
You’re prepared to wait as long as it takes for the right moment to act and you seize the opportunity when it wanders anywhere near you.
Patience is one of your greatest virtues and it usually pays off.

1:59am: Sent To All 21
M
Kung 'di lang tayo magkaiba ng diyos
mamahalin kita nang lubos
kinoconsider mo akong mistake
kasi ako naman ang  nakipagbreak

AMPLIFIED HEARTS
Evening cold weather and electronic lights
excruciating, heart-wrenching annual rites
of amplified hearts and sore crotch
someone turn this shit down a notch

KANTAHAN
Aha! Alam ko at sigurado
siya yung gusto gusto gusto
pagkalipas ng tatlong buwan
dadalas nanaman ang kantahan

PAMBOBOLA
Sa katotohanang wala naman siyang ginagawa
siya'y nakasisiguro
hanggang pagtingin, hanggang pagnanasa
hanggang sarili nalang siya
puro pamamaril at puro pambobola

LASING SA KAIBIGAN
Gusto maging permanente
walang iwanan
gusto kong sumaya
at malasing sa kaibigan

SPARE
I'll spare you all the frowns
and I won't let you down
I'll spare you all the pain
and I'll take it away

PAINFUL THINGS
The most painful things
come from your imagination
subconsciously self-inflicting
this insanity is growing

8:22pm: cancel post
gumawa ako ng mahabang entry tas inayos ko muna sa MSWORD kasi gusto ko maayos yung pagka-sunod-sunod ng mga nais kong ibahagi. nung malapit na ako matapos, biglang dinelete ko nalang. kasi mas makekwento ko siya nang maayos pag personal kitang kausap.

10:31am: First Melodic Lead Sheet
( Heartbreak )

10:24pm: 2010 will die
2010 will be
pain
life drain
hard rain

2010 will be
suffering
blood spilling
nonstop hurting

2010 will be
war
with life
hardships and strife

2010 will be
hunger
thirst
appetite destroyer

2010 will be
rough sex
multiple orgasms
sadomasochism

2010 will be
muscles burning
sweat
heat flowing

2010 will be
sickness
destroying bodies
discomfort and killer nurses

2010 will be
patience
times one thousand
because i am great

2010 will die

4:08pm: 2009 top 10 songs in my player according to last.fm
Ito yung mga kanta na pinakinggan ko na hindi necessarily lumabas nung 2009. nagkataon lang na ito yung top 10 songs sa aking player. tapos hindi ko isinama yung mga kanta ko at ng stomachine/shirley kasi ang daya nun. saka isang kanta lang bawat artist. ito yung last yr: http://bolerooffire.livejournal.com/167741.html

10. rivermaya - bochog
http://www.mediafire.com/?thm2mmm0tex
ito yung favorite song ko sa tuloy ang ligaya album na nirelease nung 2001. rico and mike elgar ata ang nagsulat. tapos konting jologs nung lyrics pero sobrang tatamaan ka talaga. haha. ang ganda rin nung pasok ng guitar solo. parang nagri-rip through your heart. tas since 2009 is heart-ripping year,pinakinggan ko siya nang husto.

9. july for kings - say it now
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bxq-ZPrlJYA
itong kanta na 'to ay nadiscover ko lang dahil nagddrive ako at nakikinig ng radyo. medyo matchbox20ish yung ibang songs nila pero eto gusto ko dahil sa melodies. tapos kamukha pa ng vocalist si shaggy from scoobydoo. tignan nyo dito: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3sppYD0UT-0

8. arvin dumo - riptide
walang link itong kanta na 'to. kailangan nyong tanungin si mr. arvin dumo kung pwede nyo hingin sa kanya.
favorite ko yung use nya of borrowed chords. ang galing e. at since ito nga ang aking favorite song ni arvin,
balak namin itong irecord properly with very winner arrangements. haha excited na ako.

7. hillsong united - hosanna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7SMUf6QcyQ&feature=related
for those who are not into this kind of music, pakinggan nyo lang yung song kahit technically. ang ganda pa rin e. si josh balagapo ang nagparinig nitong song sa akin. sobrang fan kasi ako ng hillsong united pero tumigil na akong makinig ng mga bagong kanta dahil hindi na ako part ng music ministry ng church namin. simple lang din to pero winner melodies. ang galing nila mag-arrange ng songs into powerful masterpieces. tapos ang hot pa ni brook fraser ligertwood (yep kinasal na siya). maganda rin yung album niyang albertine btw.

6. mae - release me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agZ9cvzXa1Y
this year ko lang talaga nadiscover ang mae. inaya ako ni donald laudencia sa tk kasi may nirereto sa kanya yung isa nyang kaibigan na girl. tas nag end up na ako yung mas may gusto dun sa girl. hahaha. anyway, mae yung pinapatugtog sa tk tas sobrang nacurious ako so tinanong ko kung sino. tas may isa pang hot girl na nagpapatugtog pala, nakakabit yung ipod niya sa speakers. nagkaexcuse tuloy si don na lumapit dun sa girl at tanungin kung sino yung artist. pagkauwi ko dinownload ko yung buong mae discography tapos narealize ko na medyo iba to sa mga songs nila. favorite ko yung mga extended/sustained notes before the choruses.

5.+/- - flight data recorder
http://www.mediafire.com/?wzzjjzzgmj2
dahil last track to sa x's on your eyes, medyo literally nahuli ko siyang pakinggan tas hindi masyado pinansin hanggang early this year. tapos woah. 11/8 yung meter nya pero hindi halata. naka 1-2-3-1-2-3-1-2-3-1-2 siya. tas ang powerful nung chorus, kasi ang sad pakinggan nung song pero puro major chords lang yung ginagamit. tas kahit na bitin na 6/8 yung song, may 2/8 na guitar line si james tas nasiswitch yung line kasi nga odd yung main meter. tas GENIUS. eto yung live version: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8I-Xk-JXXg

4. loney dear - saturday waits
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ohhqm0igbXE
siyempre si kathy gener (matriarch of indie/queen musicologist) yung nagpakilala sa akin ng loney dear. tas agad akong nainlove. (hindi kay kathy ha. although nainlove talaga ako sa kanya dati). ang galing ng falsetto nya tas sobrang indie lang talaga nito. ang ganda nung fuzz bass at yung lungkot na dinadala nitong song.
lagi ko rin to pinapakinggan pag nagddrive. live version here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3Tsap-FZek

3. toe - all i understand is that i don't understand
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x91d6n_toe-all-i-understand-is-that-i-dont_music
ito isa pang genius. ok lang paulit-ulit pakinggan parang matagal bago ako magsasawa. sana pumunta sila dito sa 2010. ang ganda rin pala ng bago nilang album pero hindi na umabot sa list kasi kaddownload ko lang.

2. john mayer - heartbreak warfare
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pro3bpx2SD4
man-crush john mayer does it again. haha. 1st track sa 4th studio album battlestudies tas wow ang ganda ng start. sinubaybayan ko talaga yung paggawa ng album na'to tas kahit na november na siya lumabas naging top2 pa rin siya. sobrang naadik talaga ako sa kanta na 'to. again here's the live version (ang saya na yung high guitar notes ginagawa nya gamit yung whammy/tremolo bar. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GLZ38_1FEM

1. versus - spell you're under
http://www.mediafire.com/?2nmtojnwumz
haha number 1 sa list pero ito ata yung pinaka matandang kanta dito sa lahat. ang ganda ng buong kanta. ng guitar parts, ng drums ng melodies. tapos woah ang ganda ng lyrics. hindi ako masyado sa lyrics when it comes to music pero ang wow lang talaga. at since kinain ako ng 2009, eto yung masarap kantahin para hindi ko mafeel na nasa loob ako ng stomach ng stupid year na yun. :D haha. download it.

11:00am: repair me
i'm having a very very very hard time doing something very very very simple. something is wrong with me. seriously.

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comics, hannah montana and high school musical 3 are making it more bearable.

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pls give me back my internet.

1:57pm: iyak/tawa
depende talaga kung papano mo titignan
wag mo akong pagagalitan
dahil maraming mas baliw pa
iyak/tawa iyak/tawa

walang pinanghahawakan
pero maraming pinipilit
pag nasabi sa nakaraan
marami siguro ang sasabit

buti nalang pala
may konting nararamdaman
kahit minsanang naaamoy
nais maging bahagi ng alaala

6:41am: anonas
I'm in a net cafe in ANONAS. haha.
so Ano na? SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSex

3:01pm: bawas bawas
i need to make bawas bawas everything
bawas internet because it is evil
bawas belgian chocolate milk tea because it punches you in the stomach
bawas porn because it does not help you with your sexual endurance
bawas idle time because it is a vampire bitch
bawas beer because it is not a true friend
bawas dota because it is a traitor

12:23am: santa
HOHOHOHOHO!
merry christmas!

4:30pm: second person tagalog
pag may 4=hour break ka pupunta ka sa computer shop para gumawa ng kung anu-ano. tapos mapapa-facebook ka tas makikita mo yung crush mo nung 2003. ang ganda pa rin niya hanggang ngayon. pero parang ang boring. same-old trabaho sa isang kumpanya na sikat. siguro marami siyang pera. siguro marami siyang saya. tapos makikita mo rin na may lalake siyang kasama sa mga photos niya. tas ayun. malamang nga masaya siya. tas pag-i-aadd mo siya as friend biglang uy kamusta ka na? tas ayun. unang tatanungin niya yung pagbabanda.

tas yun na.

ang saya mo naman na nagagawa mo yung gusto mo - so hindi siya masaya sa ginagawa niya? hmmmm. ang dami mo kasing nakukuhang ganun. buti ka pa nagagawa mo yung gusto mo?!?!? medyo naiinis ka.

nagagawa MO nga ba talaga yung gusto MO? e gusto mo lang magmahal.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA putang-inang yan

2:54am: 147.9
Plus 5
Long wait, long jump
To an unfamiliar place
Too risky
Erase erase erase

I’m sleepy yet you’re wide awake
Observing all the flowers
the smell mixing with the fabric conditioner of your clothes
fragrance blurry
There’s a surprise welcome-back-to-earth party
Welcome-back-to-earth reality
For you
By me
But you still don’t know it’s me
You’re still counting
And you missed the important part
Your heart
Skipped a beat
Mine’s about to retreat
Zero point one
Plus one hundred forty seven point nine
Yes yes, don’t worry. I’m fine

12:59am: 142.9
i forsee minimal discomfort
and no publicity
words --> explanations
just you and me

we'll rest
and catch our breath
because it's almost time to go back
to earth
we need all the oxygen we can get
you're still looking at the billion stars
not listening
to my instruction
on how to land without burning
but you can't catch fire
hot skin and melting
it's me who's worrying
one more step
and i'll tell you
a million things
but only one is important...


by the way, i can still smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

2:44am: 142.8
necessary lies
he wholeheartedly denies
her

we'll slide down
the satin sheets
of Mount Bed
the highest soft peak
and we aren't scared
of breaking necks
although i'm scared of hearts breaking
and misunderstandings
but you'll never know
because i'm too busy
picking one million plastic flowers
for you
they are always fresh
just like new t-shirts from airplane boxes
and you're too busy as well
enjoying the speed
not thinking
just pretending
but it's ok
as long as i can smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

1:47pm: 142.7
i sense you
you are always surprised
not expecting

we'll sit down on tree branches
1 million feet high
because the trees are floating
above the highest bulidings
you ride an invisible bicycle
and sway your legs
i pedal beside you
and feel the breeze
the forest canopy is like cheese
there are a billion ways for the sun to touch your skin
but there is no way that my hands can
it's ok
as long as i can smell the fabric conditioner of your clothes

4:20am: 142.6
telling stories to friends
about how i am
about me from a distance
everything is not clear
everything is not simple

we'll jump from the top of the tower of your dreams
and land on marshmallow and bread floors
before we land
i feel your hand
i lead and let the wind control my fall
you think you're not doing it right
but it doesn't matter
a million friendly ants welcome us at the bottom
willing to share this feast
of simple sugars and yeast
you want to do it again
of course i climb up with you
and jump a billion more times
it's ok
as long as i could smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

1:13am: 142.5
i will fly
and lift the world using my beak
we'll travel around the universe
and be back when it's time
for you to eat some chocolate
all smiles
and wind
messing your hair
but i don't really care
we'll count up to one billion
and start again
because you
lost count
and you don't know if it's already 142
or 143
but i know and won't tell
i'll let you count again
of course i'll count with you
up to a trillion
as long as i could smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

11:47pm: FUCKERS
it's all about emotions and betrayal
of friends and feelings
you try to be discreet
yet people are fuckers
you pour out yourself
yet people are fuckers
always calculating
always trying to take advantage of the situation
you have something real
yet you want it the easy way
you have something intense
yet you want some more drama

i know how you feel
AND YOU DON'T
I KNOW HOW I FEEL
AND I AM SURE
so stop treating me like a kid
BECAUSE YOU ARE THE KID, KID!
FUCKER

12:43am: rar
rar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tangina mo mawala ka na nga pls

1:05am: p1p1
magsusungit nang walang dahilan
parang gumagapang nang dahan-dahan
sa dulo ng kaparusahan
ay mukha mo

12:37am: Proclamation1:
 Phase 1: Ready Thyself