ako ang boss

2:54am: 147.9
Plus 5
Long wait, long jump
To an unfamiliar place
Too risky
Erase erase erase

I’m sleepy yet you’re wide awake
Observing all the flowers
the smell mixing with the fabric conditioner of your clothes
fragrance blurry
There’s a surprise welcome-back-to-earth party
Welcome-back-to-earth reality
For you
By me
But you still don’t know it’s me
You’re still counting
And you missed the important part
Your heart
Skipped a beat
Mine’s about to retreat
Zero point one
Plus one hundred forty seven point nine
Yes yes, don’t worry. I’m fine

12:59am: 142.9
i forsee minimal discomfort
and no publicity
words --> explanations
just you and me

we'll rest
and catch our breath
because it's almost time to go back
to earth
we need all the oxygen we can get
you're still looking at the billion stars
not listening
to my instruction
on how to land without burning
but you can't catch fire
hot skin and melting
it's me who's worrying
one more step
and i'll tell you
a million things
but only one is important...


by the way, i can still smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

2:44am: 142.8
necessary lies
he wholeheartedly denies
her

we'll slide down
the satin sheets
of Mount Bed
the highest soft peak
and we aren't scared
of breaking necks
although i'm scared of hearts breaking
and misunderstandings
but you'll never know
because i'm too busy
picking one million plastic flowers
for you
they are always fresh
just like new t-shirts from airplane boxes
and you're too busy as well
enjoying the speed
not thinking
just pretending
but it's ok
as long as i can smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

1:47pm: 142.7
i sense you
you are always surprised
not expecting

we'll sit down on tree branches
1 million feet high
because the trees are floating
above the highest bulidings
you ride an invisible bicycle
and sway your legs
i pedal beside you
and feel the breeze
the forest canopy is like cheese
there are a billion ways for the sun to touch your skin
but there is no way that my hands can
it's ok
as long as i can smell the fabric conditioner of your clothes

4:20am: 142.6
telling stories to friends
about how i am
about me from a distance
everything is not clear
everything is not simple

we'll jump from the top of the tower of your dreams
and land on marshmallow and bread floors
before we land
i feel your hand
i lead and let the wind control my fall
you think you're not doing it right
but it doesn't matter
a million friendly ants welcome us at the bottom
willing to share this feast
of simple sugars and yeast
you want to do it again
of course i climb up with you
and jump a billion more times
it's ok
as long as i could smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

1:13am: 142.5
i will fly
and lift the world using my beak
we'll travel around the universe
and be back when it's time
for you to eat some chocolate
all smiles
and wind
messing your hair
but i don't really care
we'll count up to one billion
and start again
because you
lost count
and you don't know if it's already 142
or 143
but i know and won't tell
i'll let you count again
of course i'll count with you
up to a trillion
as long as i could smell
the fabric conditioner of your clothes

11:47pm: FUCKERS
it's all about emotions and betrayal
of friends and feelings
you try to be discreet
yet people are fuckers
you pour out yourself
yet people are fuckers
always calculating
always trying to take advantage of the situation
you have something real
yet you want it the easy way
you have something intense
yet you want some more drama

i know how you feel
AND YOU DON'T
I KNOW HOW I FEEL
AND I AM SURE
so stop treating me like a kid
BECAUSE YOU ARE THE KID, KID!
FUCKER

12:43am: rar
rar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tangina mo mawala ka na nga pls

1:05am: p1p1
magsusungit nang walang dahilan
parang gumagapang nang dahan-dahan
sa dulo ng kaparusahan
ay mukha mo

12:37am: Proclamation1:
 Phase 1: Ready Thyself

2:56am: i love my bands

1:34am: permanent kids
anlabo na:
ok lang sa akin na tumanda
pero:
yung ibang tao ayoko tumanda.
pls.
kasi lagi nalang nagmomove on

10:18am: it was me
you ignore my papansins
and were cold ever since
you realized it's just me
who's not in your fanatasy

2:16am: hi anonymous LJ replier
nagbabasa ulit ako ng old entries from 2006 dahil sa post ni lougie sa FB, hinanap ko yung bato entry kung saan sinabi ko na kailangan ko maging mean para maging mabait. tas narealize ko na naging both heartbroken na ako at heartbreaker din. kaya dapat kong kayanin ang lahat.

i am wolverine and i have my jubilee.

May hinihintay akong mangyari tapos sasabog ako - yung ako naman yung masasaktan kasi hindi na ako yung gusto nya

At unti-unting madudurog ang puso kong bato - bato ako kasi nagpakacold ako para isipin nya na wala na akong pakealam sa kanya para ayawin na niya ako. madudurog kasi masakit yun kahit alam kong yun ang tamang gawin.

nagkatotoo naman e. masaya na siya ngayon. at masaya ako para sa kanya.

buti nalang natuwa si owel sa post tas ginawa nyang kanta. ang saya na ang daming tao na nakarelate dito pero iba yung sitwasyon nila. awww namiss ko yung satanismymaster blog.

8:50am: that E
I can think of a lot of excuses for not talking about that emotion, but I'm not really feeling good about it. It sets me to pessimistic mode, which is so un-me. So blogging about it keeps me sane, even if I'm not actually talking about it. I keep on telling other people, "after one year". What's up with that? Can I really hold it up to one year? Haha. Good luck Ean Aguila.

1:01am: don't mention it
3-2-4-4-2-5-3

i know.

straight towards the stars. the fastest thing i can ever do is look at those motherfuckers and realize how beautiful they are.

3:18am: SSS
Sa liit ng sweldo
galing sa mahirap na trabaho
ito ang magliligtas

Sa buhay binabawas
Kahit hindi ka malas
laging kinakaltas

Seguridad
mula sa
sampung segundong saya
Seguridad
pagkalipas ng panahon
isa na lamang alaala

Pagkatapos ng saya
natural na umaasa
simangot ay sumisilip

Sampung segundo
naglalaro ang isip
masamang hangin na ang umiihip

Seguridad
mula sa
sampung segundong saya
Seguridad
pagkalipas ng panahon
isa na lamang alaala

10:56pm: Mukhang In-Love Ako Kay Martin Tensuan Dito
Gumawa ako ng write-up for Martin para sa Yearbook:


Pero nireject nya. Hindi niya ginamit. How sad... haha

1:04pm: 7 Deadly Scenes!!!!


Olive Juice Productions together with UP Underground presents

7 DEADLY SCENES
Seven bands celebrate seven years

Saturday, September 19,2009

CLUB DREDD, Eastwood


Awesome performances by:
GASULINA
STOMACHINE
HANSOM
IVAN THEORY
EXTRAPOLATION
MONTEBLANCHE
INDAY BOTE

9:10pm: OMEGAD

1:06am: pain
addicted to pain
here we go again

look at me
and you will notice the way i look at her

addicted to sadness
here we go again

look at her
she is perfect
she is not who you think she is

5:09pm: nainggit ako kay andy
aren’t you gonna say that you’re taking me away?
instead of waiting every day
paralyzed by fear

in the meantime while you concentrate on you
that’s what you’ve got to do
but don’t ask me for time

4:29pm: nagmamarunong
pag nagcocomment ka sa blog ng iba, wag ka dapat mag marunong. dapat nagtatanong ka muna kung ano ba talaga yung sinusulat ng kino-comment-an mo. para hindi nakakapikon.

11:58am: ang hot mo LIV TYLER
( LT )

11:30pm: d
i've been feeling depressed the past few weeks. parang wala akong niloo-look forward to. sobrang emotionally tired.